These recent articles are soothing to my frazzled "inner peace", so many thanks to all who've posted them - especially Nicole and Kristina for the last three.

Ever since Thursday, I wake up in the morning and this big ache takes over, and though I can find problems with the scoring and reporting, the bottom line is I keep asking myself over and over "Why?" Why did Johnny skate the way he did that night? Somehow these articles are starting to put it together for me.

It really does hurt to love Johnny right now, but I am beginning to understand that "why?" and to deal with it. And I know Johnny will, too.

Pamela